So much going on inside my head. So much sadness, confusion,
sympathy, wanting to care, but hurting to care at the same time. Why do things
sometimes have to be so hard? It’s like all the good times have saved up the
bad times and chucked them as hard as they can in one giant mud slinging
assassination attempt. At times like these words coming out of my head make one
feel better. I apologise for it coming out so convoluted, but this time it’s
more about getting feelings onto webpage than actually making sense.
I find it sad when life so young gets cut short. You should
have lived so much longer, and happier, and made more memories with those
people that love you. Because I tell you right now, they loved you more than
you dreamed. This sadness has spread so much, and affected so many people. I
don’t blame you, infact I’m sad that you aren’t here. It would be so much
simpler if you were.
I find it sad when people think that no one cares to the
point where they think they’re all alone. Not just to the tragic point where
some outcomes have been taken, but even those who live life alone. There are people
who want to help you. It’s a thing put inside of us to help you. And it’s not
just us. There’s a God who created you to do something amazing. He wouldn’t
have made you the way you are unless He loved you the way you are. If only you
could have read this before.
Many joys, many successes will come, many good memories and
laughter will end up happening, but right now I feel ok being sad. It’s not a bad
thing. Let it out, don’t bottle it up. Bottled up stuff always ends up
fermenting and going bad. Or making other things go bad.
In times like these, I know one thing. Beyond any feel good
thing, and by the way, I believe feelings are good. They are essential. If you
don’t have feelings you’re in a bad bad place. But beyond simply feel good, one
thing comforts and creates hope like no other. The Lord is my light and
salvation. Whom shall I fear? No one. The Lord is the strength of my life. Of
whom shall I be afraid? Absolutely no one at all. Though the worst things in
life sling themselves my way in an ambush of apocalyptic proportions, I know
one thing remains. God is love. He is love. That is all.
